Helena Trent

In Darkness Born the Light - My Journey From Mutation To Transformation

Happy Mother’s Day

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Happy Mother’s Day to you all mothers!

I am enjoying my mother’s day weekend. I taught a 2-hour continuing class yesterday morning, went out to lunch with a few tai chi friends, then watched a ballet show, Sleeping Beauty by the Pittsburgh Ballet Company complementary of another tai chi friend! It was such a beautiful and enjoyable day! By the time I got home, I felt like I needed to be the sleeping beauty for the next century! LOL!

David is cooking me dinner tonight. He is sweet! I am happy to be part of his life and see him grow up to be a young man.

Thank you all for your generous donations! I have started my Traditional Chinese Medicine treatments. My herbalist made me a personalized tea to improve my chi circulation. It’s freshly made weekly, taken twice a day. It’s very bitter with a sweet after taste. It took me a few days to adjust to it, but I think I like it now. 🙂

I also started my acupuncture treatments this past week. Since I don’t have any specific pain issues, she aimed the treatments at boosting my immune system and balance my energy. I had pins literally from head and toe. I freaked out a bit when she put pins in my crown and temples, but was able to quickly relaxed into it and took a 45-minute deep nap during the treatment. I guess sleep is the best medicine if nothing else.

I will go back to my sleeping beauty mode! 🙂

P.S. If have the power to give birth to another human being, then I have the power to give birth to myself… re-generating each cell, each organ, each tissue and bone… Just like being pregnant with a baby and I can’t rush the development process, I can’t rush my healing process either. It takes the perfect amount of time the body needs. All is well.

Chi Returning

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Just got back from a week of tai chi (CIT week in Orangeville) and feeling strong. Spending a week away from my daily life did me a lot of good, rested and reconnected with lots of friends from all over the world.

At one of the sessions towards the end of the program while we were working on a sequence of the moves, with the lead instructor’s help, I was able to go deeper. Heat was immediately activated and I started to have sweat pouring out of me! I instantly felt better and stronger. I haven’t felt this way in tai chi in a year. I am so happy I reconnected with the circulation in my practice!

I made appointments for Traditional Chinese Medicine and acupuncture this week as well as two Vitamin C IV drips.

Thank you for all your well wishes, prayers and financial support! I am writing my story as I live my story. I don’t know how this story is going to end, could be beautifully tragic, could be beautifully triumph, could be beautifully average boring (wouldn’t that be nice, lol!!!)… in any case, it already is the most beautiful story I ever lived thanks to you all!

Speak from the heart

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Last night, in another lucid dream state, “Master Breath” showed up to teach again in the silence and stillness of the night when I was in a complete relaxation state.

This time, I was lying on my back. After following it for a few relaxing breaths in and out, it guided me to drop the back of my tongue as if tucking my tongue to sleep. I followed and immediately breath flowed to the back of my throat and opened the airway wide open. I never realized I was stuck on the front of my throat… as if I was ready to defend myself verbally anytime. LOL! Have I been like that my whole life?! Even in my sleep??

As I breath into it, it started to open the front of my neck bones. I had an auto accident over 20 years ago that gave me a severe whip lash. The front of my neck was closed in. I can’t tell you how many chiropractors have tried to “correct” that curvature without success over the decades. Now it’s opening on its own!

The sensation in my throat was open and relaxed and my breath immediately traveled to the upper lobe of my lung where the original tumor is. A white light pulsated through my lungs.

My throat chakra opened. The throat chakra has to do with how we express ourselves in the world. It’s connected through our hands, what we do with our lives including career choices we make.

As I relaxed and connected with the chi flowing through, it dropped into my heart directly. That’s the heart chakra. There was a strong bond/circuitry forming intensely between my throat and my heart like it’s pulsing as one. Is that why people say “speak from your heart?” Words have a powerful vibrational energy when it comes directly from the heart. As I was dazed from the realization, a strong circulation coursed through my hands and my heart… like “holding the ball” in so many of our tai chi moves especially in transitions between one movement to the next. Is that why we “hold the ball” so many times in so many different ways in our tai chi set?

When our heart is open, it flows out in the work we do in this world. It makes sense that if/when we choose work that’s not in our alignment with our heart, in order to get the job done, we would have to close our heart to disconnect in order to push on. No wonder we could be so exhausted and depleted. If we try harder, we tense up even more.

When the things we choose to do are aligned with our heart energy, we are open to receive the generosity of the world and energy flows through in everything we touch. We are able to give and receive with effortless ease.

There have been three different astrologists in my life with completely different training backgrounds and traditions that told me I have a book in me. I just never had a reason to write a book. Until my cancer journey, I had no reason to make my writing public even though I have been writing almost on a daily basis for over a decade.

I thought Tagrisso was the reason I was getting better so fast initially, but looking back, maybe it was writing this blog that uplifted me. I posted on my blog almost daily initially, then as I got better I started to sensor myself. Meanwhile, I thought I could go back to my business doing what I was doing… which my body clearly did not support based on the latest scan results.

Well, Destiny, please meet Digital Age! There is a reason I spent the last 20 years building websites. I am not going to write a book (yet), but I will build a website so that the lessons I learned on this journey could be shared to help others in their healing journey instead of being a personal blog.

Once again, life gave me exactly what I need even though it’s the last thing I want! I could act like a little girl and cry about how I have been a good girl and I didn’t get what I wanted and life is unfair… or I could be a mature adult and let go of my desire so I could truly receive from life what I am meant to receive and do with an open heart. Thank you, Life!

I am leaving tomorrow for a tai chi week next week. I am going dark on electronic devices. I can’t wait to experience a tai chi week under the guidance of “Master Breath”. What an interesting week I have to look forward to!

With all my love to you all… have a wonderful week!