Helena Trent

In Darkness Born the Light - My Journey From Mutation To Transformation

PET Scan Meditation

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I had a PET scan this morning and had the craziest meditation experience I thought I would share with everyone.

For those of you that had ever been sick (hopefully not as sick as I am), medical screenings are never fun. People usually show up so stressed out and in a lousy mood understandably so. Me being me, I had the most enlightening experience! LOL!!!

Here is what happened…

As part of the protocol, they told me to fast this morning, no food, no drinks, no caffeine, no exercise… basically be as quiet as possible so that they can get a read on my cancer cell activities. They injected me with the contrast and told me to sit quietly for an hour. I thought to myself, that I can do! So, I sat quietly and relaxed. Before I knew it, I went into a deep meditation…

I have done meditation plenty of times before, but this was different. First of all, I didn’t set out to do it. I simply sat and it felt so good and natural that my body went completely still. I didn’t feel the need to stir so I let my body be. After a while, it felt like I was floating in vastness of nothing, like being in space not that I ever knew what space is like. 🙂 I went into this deep trance, no thought, no emotions, no nothing… just be. By the time the hour was over and the nurse came to get me, it felt like moments went by. I was completely dazed.

I walked over to the scan room and lied down on the scan table, decided to go quiet again and it happened again. I was completely still for however much time it took them (maybe 30-45 min) and again it felt like minutes. I have been in a couple dozen scans for this or that in the last 6 months, I had always had to try to stay still for all that time, but not this time! By the time they told me it was over, I couldn’t believe it. The nurse had to tell me twice before I recognized what he was saying!

I was so amazed that I drove home and decided to sit for no reason other than total curiosity. I sat for another 2 hours being totally absolutely still with no effort! The only reason I got out of it was my son texted me because he forgot something.

Ahh… time to come back to the real world! lol! Thank you, life! What an amazing day! And, thank you, Cancer, for teaching me how to meditate!

Happy Mother’s Day

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Happy Mother’s Day to you all mothers!

I am enjoying my mother’s day weekend. I taught a 2-hour continuing class yesterday morning, went out to lunch with a few tai chi friends, then watched a ballet show, Sleeping Beauty by the Pittsburgh Ballet Company complementary of another tai chi friend! It was such a beautiful and enjoyable day! By the time I got home, I felt like I needed to be the sleeping beauty for the next century! LOL!

David is cooking me dinner tonight. He is sweet! I am happy to be part of his life and see him grow up to be a young man.

Thank you all for your generous donations! I have started my Traditional Chinese Medicine treatments. My herbalist made me a personalized tea to improve my chi circulation. It’s freshly made weekly, taken twice a day. It’s very bitter with a sweet after taste. It took me a few days to adjust to it, but I think I like it now. 🙂

I also started my acupuncture treatments this past week. Since I don’t have any specific pain issues, she aimed the treatments at boosting my immune system and balance my energy. I had pins literally from head and toe. I freaked out a bit when she put pins in my crown and temples, but was able to quickly relaxed into it and took a 45-minute deep nap during the treatment. I guess sleep is the best medicine if nothing else.

I will go back to my sleeping beauty mode! 🙂

P.S. If have the power to give birth to another human being, then I have the power to give birth to myself… re-generating each cell, each organ, each tissue and bone… Just like being pregnant with a baby and I can’t rush the development process, I can’t rush my healing process either. It takes the perfect amount of time the body needs. All is well.

Chi Returning

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Just got back from a week of tai chi (CIT week in Orangeville) and feeling strong. Spending a week away from my daily life did me a lot of good, rested and reconnected with lots of friends from all over the world.

At one of the sessions towards the end of the program while we were working on a sequence of the moves, with the lead instructor’s help, I was able to go deeper. Heat was immediately activated and I started to have sweat pouring out of me! I instantly felt better and stronger. I haven’t felt this way in tai chi in a year. I am so happy I reconnected with the circulation in my practice!

I made appointments for Traditional Chinese Medicine and acupuncture this week as well as two Vitamin C IV drips.

Thank you for all your well wishes, prayers and financial support! I am writing my story as I live my story. I don’t know how this story is going to end, could be beautifully tragic, could be beautifully triumph, could be beautifully average boring (wouldn’t that be nice, lol!!!)… in any case, it already is the most beautiful story I ever lived thanks to you all!