I had my second immunotherapy treatment today. I have had quite a few recent decline since the first one three weeks ago. Even the oncologies have to admit those are not signs of things working out. They now put me on 2 kinds of pain killers around the clock. One for long term, one fast acting in case I need an extra dose. I don’t be able to drive anymore taking these and other side affects to deal with, but putting pain under control is #1.
They also sent me home with an oxygen tank. I do feel so much better with oxygen while I received treatment today. My lungs don’t have to struggle so hard.
The hardest part of dying is dying. When do we let go? How long does it take? My next scan is scheduled for 7/30. If we don’t see any signs of improvement which we don’t expect to, we will end the treatments. Then, I will start hospice care at home and at some point may need to move into a nursing home facility depends on how it goes. I am ready. So many friends are helping me get things done.
Thank you for all your prayers! Just a little longer!
Sending all my love and prayers to my most favorite Tai Chi instructor ever!!…and honored to say my friend.
Helena Trent says
I am the one that is honored to have been a part of your life!
Larry Ivkovich says
I’m sorry to hear the latest news, Helena, but still say you’re the strongest person I’ve ever met. Your instruction in tai chi and example in the face of this illness has put me on such a positive path in my life, one I never knew existed. Thank you. I wish there was more I could to for you.
When you are in heaven, having dinner with Buddha and Confucius and the Immortal Lu, Quan Yin, and Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, and all the saints and angels, and maybe Miles Davis and David Bowie (what a banquet that will be), I hope we can still communicate somehow on a different plane. I will miss your presence on this earth terribly, and treasure having gotten to know you even a little. You have done so much for so many people just in TTCS – and I know you do other stuff too. Meanwhile, go for the palliative care, I want you to not be in pain. I know from being close to others at the end of their lives that you will know when it is time, and nothing can stop you when that time comes. Sending big love to you, always and forever.
P.S. I am confident that Master Moy will be at the table as well. Please tell him thank you from all of us.
Helena Trent says
Thank you, my dear! I certainly hope Master Moy would grant me the honor. 😉 I will watch over all of you while enjoying enlightened conversations with world’s masters. Send me a question in heaven and listen for an answer.
I will carry your kindness, thoughtfulness, and positiveness with me forever. Love to you. (When a computer question comes your way- you’ll know who its from. LOL!)
A true meaning of friends forever,
I love you dear!
Sending love. Thank you for being a wonderful example how to live this life gracefully, Helena.
Michael M. says
Peace and love to you, Helena.
Fond memories, always.