Freedom

I have had another decent week under my belt. I continue to improve and my energy level is more stable this week. I have gained a few pounds back after losing 20+ lbs since this ordeal started.  My calcium level was very low because of the cancer in my bones were leeching calcium into my blood. With radiation treatments and lots of supplements, my calcium is now normal for the first time in months. I even started driving this week! It felt great to be out on my own again. It has been a couple of months since I drove myself anywhere. I stopped driving because I was on opioids for pain and didn’t trust myself to drive. Brett was job hunting and had time to drive me to my doctors’ appointments, etc. otherwise I would stay home. He got a job offer in Canton, OH about 2 hours away starting in first week of December. I am very happy for him. It also means I need to work towards regaining my independence again.

Now that I am generally feeling better, I have been reading and learning a lot about cancer and healing. I started back on some gentle tai chi practice again along with meditation and healing visualization. I am just starting to get a sense of how powerful our mind could be in the healing process. 

My favorite quote this week:

Illness is often nothing more than a healthy response to an unhealthy situation.

– Healing From Within

Want to know something interesting about the mind in Chinese? The word “mind” doesn’t exist! In Chinese, the concept of mind is represented by two characters “heart” and “spirit”. When the heart and spirit energy are aligned, the mind is quiet. When they are out of balance, then the mind is turbulent. I am learning to listen to my body with my heart and paying attention to how it affects my spirit. Every major set back in my life has caused me to learn and grow as a person, cancer is no different. I am grateful for the learning opportunity… life and death it may be. Nothing like having death as the motivation to live! Lol!

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! I have you all to be thankful for in my life. You gave me the strength to face life when I had none and started me on my healing journey.