21-Day Water Fasting… Again

I felt like back to square one again… sigh. As I got off my fasting and got back to regular eating, at first it was energetic, especially the first few days even with the occasional minor indigestion initially. As the days went by, I could feel my insides getting more and more congested. I was trying to have one last weekend of nice meals especially because it’s Mother’s Day weekend, then go back into a few days of water fasting to clear the system. Well, like deja vu, my body decided no more meals and proceeded to vomiting out of the blue AGAIN as we were cooking dinner on Saturday night! So… water fasting it is. I was totally pissed this time!!! 😡 I know it’s my brain tumors that have been messing with me. They are supposed to be all gone after the 2 week whole brain radiation, but I know they are not because I got headaches at different regions of my brain. This happened last time too, a few days of that and then I threw up. It turns out nausea and vomiting are typical symptoms of brain tumors. It did stop after the last water fasting and I think it had to do with the cancer activities slowing way down with water fasting. With eating on a regular basis again, cancer cells always outgrow healthy cells.

I am back on water fasting and this time I am going for the 21-day cell cycle like I had planned last time. I thought I had a reset, but it was very brief. This time, one of us will die, if it’s me, so be it, but I won’t let cancer send me on a yo-yo back and forth every other week. The good thing is I am stronger going into it this time and I know what to expect at least the first 7 days. I am not as apprehensive about the process. I believe my body still has a fighting chance and it can come back. Like my bursitis on my hip, it was painful for weeks, but once I got to physical therapy, it only took 2 sessions for me to work out the problem and it took a totally of 4 days for it to recovery completely. It just needs the right support. I really believe my cancer is the same way, but I haven’t quite figure out the right combinations yet. As long as I am alive and breathing, I still have a chance.

Over the weekend as I cooked our planned meals for the family without eating it, I thought it was such irony that they are enjoying my Mother’s Day dinner. It’s unthinkable for Chinese to choose not to eat. I remember there was a time in my life I would get hangry because a meal was late… lol! I think it’s in my genes. There must be hundreds and thousands of hungry ghosts in my ancestral line. Not a surprise considering Chinese history was full of famines mostly due to corrupt governments (somethings just don’t change I suppose 😜) My parents were the last generation to experience famine during the cultural revolution. I was born during the cultural revolution, naturally I am reluctant to do this.

I decided to dedicate this 21-Day water fasting to the entire ancestral line of hungry ghosts, may my fasting end the entirely family line of suffering related to food and may this body be made anew to serve the generations to come! It’s also fitting this cancer is a gene mutation, let it all end here.