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Moonstone of Love

July 14, 2019 by Helena Trent 1 Comment

Moonstone Necklace from my son to guide me out of my dark days.

David has just returned from spending two weeks in Asia with his JROTC group. He brought me gifts from each country, Vietnam, Cambodia, and Thailand. When it comes to giving gifts, he definitely takes after his dad where he is both generous and thoughtful. Among the many beautiful gifts he presented me, one I felt deeply in love with is this heart-shaped moonstone necklace.

I looked up the meaning of moonstone, the first thing came up was:

The meaning of moonstone is in its energy—a nourishing, sensual, deeply feminine energy that knows how to heal and bring you back to wholeness. It is the stone of the mother moon, deep healing waters, and sacred feminine energies. With its high energy rays of purple, gold, and blue colors, the mysterious moonstone is always enveloped in shimmering white energy; this makes it a protective stone.

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How perfect is that? God willing, I will live to see this wonderful young man graduate from high school, college, and maybe someday time with my grandchildren.

For those of you who have been following my cancer journey know that I was dead set against chemo based on my radiation experience. Looking back, although radiation took me down to a point I almost died, it did help me recover from my back pain and improved the quality of my life. More importantly, the last 10 months gave me the time I needed to restore my energy especially with the alternative treatments so many have generously supported me with financially.

Despite all my efforts, cancer has advanced. There is a saying in Chinese medicine, 以毒攻毒 meaning use poison to attack (cure) poison. Sometimes, we need to bring the most powerful weapon to face the most forbidden foe in life. It’s time to call in the almighty power of chemo for the next stage of my alchemy of transformation… “al-chemo”.

From my shocking diagnosis to my past year’s journey, life has shown me love and grace beyond measure. I didn’t (still don’t) feel like this cancer is my cancer. I didn’t smoke, lived a healthy lifestyle, I didn’t do anything to cause this, but this is no doubt mine to deal with. This part of cancer is mine to eradicate because I have the strength and support of the world to end it.

In our Taoist practices, we say that our body is a microcosm of the macrocosm. Through this body, through this lifetime is our way to transform the world. I dedicate my “alchemo” process to eradicate not only the disease in my body but to eradicate all diseases and all sufferings of the world. If it’s in my gene and in my family line, it’s going to end here one way or another. Through my healing, may the world be healed of all insidious diseases.

If I live through this, may I be the living proof that there is life after devastation and suffering and I will dedicate the rest of my life to the healing and transformation of the world.

If I don’t live through this, then may my body encapsulate all diseases and suffering upon my death. My body will first be transformed by fire into ashes. I then want a portion of my ashes to be buried and transformed by the earth at the White Cloud Mountain of my birth place in Guangzhou; a portion of it spread at the Continental Divide in Colorado transformed by the wind; a portion of it scatter at the beaches of Wilmington, NC transformed by water, returned to the ocean of life for the benefit of all beings; and the last portion kept my closest families and friends transformed by love.

Either way, however it turns out, I know I have done my part with my earthly life. I am ready to face my destiny!

Filed Under: Inspiration

Chemo or no chemo?

July 10, 2019 by Helena Trent 2 Comments

I met with my oncologist this morning to go over my latest liver biopsy results. The purpose of the liver biopsy was 2-fold, one to make sure the new spots are cancerous and if so, if it’s a different type of cancer than the one I was originally diagnosed with. The results showed that it is cancerous and it is the same type of cancer. That means my body no longer responds to the drug I am on even though it did wonders for me the first three months.

What’s his next recommendation? Chemo as expected. I already voiced my hesitancy in my last visit. He was well aware of that so he talked through all the possible options and possibilities with me. Without going into all the details, chemo is the best logical next step.

However, I told him about all the alternative treatments I have been on since April and how well I have been feeling… he could already see that. I asked for another CT scan and MRI just to see if anything I have done so far made any difference. He agreed. He also ordered a blood biopsy just to be sure there is no other alternatives available.

CT Scan and MRI are scheduled next Thursday & Friday. Based on the results of those tests, we will make our decisions for the next step. Let’s pray for an improvement in the scans!

Filed Under: Medical Update

Greetings from Canada!

July 6, 2019 by Helena Trent Leave a Comment

Hope everyone is enjoying their long weekend! I am in Orangeville for tai chi week this week. This is the best tai chi week I have had in a long time where I am able to participate in most of the activities. I am definitely sweating and getting a lot of circulations going whether is from the heat or from tai chi, I am happy I am getting all the junk out of me.

I also visited a Korean doctor while I am here. He mostly works with people on diet and exercise. He told me I have been eating all the wrong kinds of foods for a long time. According to his practice, I am supposed be be eating everything underground not above ground, so root vegetables are good like potatoes, sweet potatoes, etc. everything above ground is bad for me especially fruits. Of course I have been eating lots of different kinds of fruits and vegetables for antioxidants, etc. Go figure! So, a new diet to try out! He also gave me a Korean acupuncture treatment which is very different than the Chinese acupuncture treatments that I get weekly. He also put a gel patch on my back to help dissolve the tumors in my lungs. It’s itching me like crazy but he said that means it’s working! 🙂

I am also trying a very fancy PEMF mat to reset my energy on a cellular level. PEMF mats have been used in Europe to treat cancer. It’s a very expensive purchase of course, so I am renting it for 5 weeks to try it out. I am suppose to be able to see a difference in my blood test results next time I go to the doctors. Fingers cross!

Speaking of doctor’s appointments, I am meeting with my oncologist next Wednesday to go over my liver biopsy results. Would be interesting to see what he recommends as the next step. Will keep you all posted!

Filed Under: Progress update

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