In Darkness Born the Light - My Journey From Mutation To Transformation
My medicine showed up early today! I took it right after lunch. I was curious what side affects I might have. So far the only thing I could feel is it makes me extremely tired. Pretty much as soon as I took it, I went to bed and took a 3-hour nap! That’s probably the best thing I could do for myself right now. I am happy to sleep and not feel the constant pain. At least it’s a temporary relief.
Thank you for all your prayers, well wishes, as well as food! I appreciate you all so much!
Two doctors appointments today and no good news to share.
The morning appointment was with the lung doctor. He said the brain MRI results came back. Brain tumors have been confirmed. There are actually multiples of them in different areas of the brain. It’s one thing to expect it and another thing to actually receive a confirmation of something much worse. I feel like life has punched me in the gut again.
The afternoon appointment was with the back doctor. She showed me the spine MRI that was taken earlier with the fractured disc. Now that we have the pet scan, we know there are cancer cells in there. She also showed me all the places pet scan showed cancer cells. There are 8 different areas in my bones alone. The only thing she could possibly do something about is the 1 disc if it helps at all. She wants me to see my radiation oncologist on Wednesday and see what they can do first. She doesn’t want to recommend anything that might interfere with the radiation treatment because that needs to come first. I will wait.
On top of all these, I have been taking a cough medicine that has hydrocodone in it. That’s the only thing that is able to somewhat control my cough. My lung doctor wrote another of the same prescription today because I am about to run out. Guess what the pharmacist told me, I am over my opioids limit for the year! What??? I am only a month into this thing. How could they be worried about my opioids intake at this stage?! The doctor’s office has to resolve that with the insurance company.
I went out for a sunset walk and some tai chi outdoor yesterday. I love this time of the day. I know I couldn’t prevent darkness from falling, but I know in my heart the sun will rise the next day. I do feel sorry for myself sometimes and all the friends and family on this journey with me. It’s one gut wrenching news after another. It’s just so hard on days like this.
The only family member doesn’t seem to be concerned is Oreo, one of my 3 cats. As I type all these bad news to you all, guess what he is doing?
I can’t help but smile. I adore him so much! At least one of us is not crying today. I count that as a blessing! And, yes, Mater Oreo, I will get some sleep! Tomorrow my super-duper-end-all-be-all drug will arrive. I need my strength for that! The sun will rise!